Decisions

Yesterday still doesn't feel real. Everything seems like a blur. I think I slept for 2 hours. Maybe. There are so many decisions to be made. Daddy didn't make his wishes known, so we had to decide everything based on what we thought he would want. We thought it was important to have his funeral in my hometown because that is where he lived the past 35 yrs of his life. That was probably the easiest decision to make. The rest was tough. What funeral home? Do we bury him or cremate him? How much is it all going to cost? How will we pay for it? Somehow it would all come together.

Lots of phone calls are coming in and going out. When we first arrived we were trying to figure out how I could see Daddy. We contacted the hospital but they wouldn't let me come as they had already taken him to the morgue. They had to release him to a funeral home. My aunt called the one my uncle was at in August and they were gracious enough to say they would take him so I could see him.

Then we had to find a funeral home in Beaver. We called one that we thought Daddy already had a relationship with as he had done security work for them, but they did not seem very nice or willing to help. I called a close friend and asked her what to do, when told her what happened, she suggested the funeral home she knew would take care of us. This one was very kind, gave us advice, and helped us work through hard decisions. He assured us that we could work everything out over the phone and we could meet with him the day before the viewing. He asked us to fill out the information for the obituary and to put together about 50 pictures of my Dad for a slide show. Rob and I have to go back home today to pack clothes for a week as I rushed and only packed enough for one night. I still can't sleep. I'm exhausted.