Depressed

I haven't kept up here because I have been depressed for the past few weeks. This bout was longer than most times. It comes and goes, sometimes only for a few days, but this time it lasted longer than a week. I have about two more weeks before I see the psychiatrist. Part of me wishes I could have gotten in sooner, part of me doesn't even want to go. I don't really want to go on medication and I think he will put me on it. I have mixed feelings about it like I did 12 yrs ago. I don't want to be around people right now, I want to be left alone, I want to just sit and do nothing, but none of that is possible. Not with two little girls that need my time and attention. I don't want them to see me like that either. I keep trying to pull myself out of it, but nothing seems to make me feel better. I hope I'm feeling better when I see the psychiatrist.