Trying To Be Happy

I am trying to be happy this weekend. I am a little. Rob's brother got married today. The wedding was beautiful. The girls were cute flower girls in their pretty red dresses. It was an exciting day. I spent the day taking alot of pictures, something I love to do. It feels strange to "move on" and do the things that make me happy, when I don't really want to. I am still very sad and having a very hard time with Daddy's death. I am trying to be happy, but I find it hard to be all the time. I know there is no time table or rules for grieving. I only know that it takes time to heal and to feel better. I have experienced that with my grandparent's deaths, but losing them is completely different than losing my Dad. It is a totally different experience. But this weekend, I am trying to put my sadness aside and be happy for Dave & Joanna and share their special day with a smile on my face.